if today had a color, it’d be muck-brown.
i’ve been seriously quirked up the last couple of days. anxious. on edge. etc. this is ridiculous as i just finished one of the best shows of my life. that said, i have dropped the ball (granted, just mini-balls) twice yesterday and today on things at work so i’m doubting myself. i hate that. in reality neither of these issues should be causing me to doubt myself.
certainly the bridge incident may have something to do with it – but this feels deeper.
i’ve gotta figure out how to break this mood.