if today had a color, it’d be muck-brown. 

i’ve been seriously quirked up the last couple of days.  anxious.  on edge.  etc.  this is ridiculous as i just finished one of the best shows of my life.  that said, i have dropped the ball (granted, just mini-balls) twice yesterday and today on things at work so i’m doubting myself.  i hate that.  in reality neither of these issues should be causing me to doubt myself.

certainly the bridge incident may have something to do with it – but this feels deeper. 

i’ve gotta figure out how to break this mood.